Fruit Snacks and Fake Dreams

He thinks I'm jealous. I write him an e-mail telling him how happy I am that him and Brittany are going out and he considers me jealous. Why hasn't he been talking to me or e-mailing me back? Jealousy comes into play there too. But why should I care what he thinks right? Well....I believe it was just the sudden STOP of contact....and then the new girlfriend that I'm supposedly jealous of. But maybe that shouldn't be an issue. Maybe I am jealous that he moved on so fast....that he dropped me and picked up the next girl that came along. I know I don't deserve that kind of treatment. Or do I? Is that just me being self-centered? Thinking that I don't deserve anything but the best? Well.....I don't think so. But hey! what do I know these days?
Clay called sometime this weekend and said he got my letter. For this I am glad....knowing he has received many of my feelings on him and Jackie. Sure....he might not get what I am trying to say....but I'm sure when we talk today (if he calls because I have lost his number and therefore he can't receive a call from me) we will be able to figure a lot of this stuff out.
Sarah was GREAT enough to drag me along to Oklahoma with her and her family to see Seth graduate college. I had an awesome time. The trip consisted of getting pulled over by the cops, not finding gorillas, really good bread, a midnight trip to Burger King, having a burnt bug thrown in my lap, and discovering a sign that Seth and Amber should be together. I would definitely say the trip was a successful one....
I talked to Robert this weekend like I haven't done in a LOOONG time. It was one of the best times I've ever had with him. We didn't talk much about relationships and love.....we just acted crazy and fun. It was great in my eyes. Just thought you'd like to know.....