Now will it be weird?

Sarah has called him and confirmed my unknown feelings to him. What is his thoughts on this? "I know." Well......I really did see that coming. I mean, I sort of figured he had known, but now that's it's officially thrown up in the air like that.....it's a whole different story. I guess that one thing that really bums me out now is how I look in his eyes now. Am I just someone that has a crush on him? Or am I in his mind a little more now? Maybe I'm in his mind less now, considering he knows how I feel about him now. It's not worth it. These times when I stare off into space and think about what he's doing now, or if he's thinking of me at the same time. Maybe the thing that gets me down is the fact that now it might be awkward. I mean, if I go to one of his parties and there he is, possibly with Sarah, and I'm starring.......wishing it was me sitting by him......thinking about him. Why did I have to go and fall in like with him? Why couldn't I have just left it at "friends" and not have all of this to think about? Well......I guess I got what I asked for then didn't I?
School starts. It's the first day. Friends come and we hug and catch up and laugh about all the upcoming dances and parties and classes to look forward to. Then he walks in. I stop. Will it be different? What will happen this summer that will change the fate of the first day? Of the freshman year? Of high school? Who knows? Maybe nothing will change. Maybe I won't talk to him all summer (I doubt it) and then maybe I will fall out of like with him and it will all go back to normal. Yeah right huh? I have made up my mind about something. I'm not going to hide anymore. I'm going to step up and say...."Yeah! I'm Brianne and I like him." None of this elementary stuff when I hide behind the jungle gym.....hoping he won't see me, yet secretly wishing he will notice me and come and talk to me. No. Sure, maybe I won't stand on the cafeteria tables and announce it to everyone, but if multiple people have put us together....I guess there is no since in hiding my feelings from people on my part. If they know, great. If they don't.....it's Krum.....they will find out. All right, I'm saying this like I'm absolutely sure of my feelings. Well, that's where I'm wrong. Who knows if a crush is what's happening. Maybe I just think it is. MAYBE it's just something that I THINK is there.....yet doesn't exist at all. *Sigh* I have no clue what I'm supposed to do. I know what I'm GOING to do, nonetheless. I'm going to quit making a big deal out of this and I'm going to quit acting like I'm 25 and I've found love. After all......I'm just a fish.