I don't need Happy...it likes you anyways

He doesn't like me. He doesn't like her as much. He doesn't like her either. He won't have her. He wants a girlfriend. I'm done trying.

I've been trying for too long. Now...I'm done. He keeps telling me that he wants a girlfriend (yeah...I ask) but he doesn't like anyone. I'm here, I'm here, I'm HERE! *he turns his head and shakes it as a 'no'* He just doesn't want me. A best friend is all I can be in his life. I'm going to accept it and do my best to help him in his quest to happiness. He wants to find a girlfriend? Sure I'll help him...if he wants me to....because I'm the best friend and that's what I'm supposed to do. That's what I've been trying to do. I'm not the girlfriend. No matter how much I WANTED to be that...it never happned. So on that note, best friends we are...best friends he wants us to stay.

She doesn't know how to make me happy. She doesn't get what I'm trying to say. She says I get mad over her doing anything, talking to anyone. Well I'm here to say this...I don't need happy. Quit worrying about me happy. I'm not mad at you for doing anything. Talk to him all you want. It doesn't make me mad because y'all are friends just like we are. I was just upset that he loved you and not me. And I could see that when y'all talked. That's where my feelings came from. I'm not upset anymore because I'm taking my duties as "Best Friend" and accepting that I can't be "Girlfriend." Set him up with whoever. Even Marcie. Don't feel that you have to hide it from me by deleting text messages. I guess that hurt most of all. The fact that you we're trying to hide it because maybe you felt that it would upset me or piss me off. If you thought it was wrong and you had to hide it...why'd you do it in the first place? Whatever...I'm sure you had a good reason. Besides, it didn't piss me off anyways. Don't worry.


"Be good! Don't be mean to other people or they will hit you on the floor and you will get dirty!"
-Landen Cash Parkes-