Karma

I've realized that I'm just as bad as I thought he was. I think that the fact that he comments on how badly he needs a girlfriend, but won't date the one right in front of him was a contradicting, dumb thing to do. But, I'm doing the same thing. Here's a time that I keep saying that I want a boyfriend and I have this guy that I could be going out with. But, I'm still hung up on him. WHY? Rejection usually drives people away. But, I'm just dumb like that. So I've just contradicted myself. Which is exactly what I wanted to hit him for doing. I'm so confused I don't even know what I want anymore. I want so many things that aren't going to happen that I can't see what could be happening. So, anymore complaining and you can just tell me to shut up because I'm bringing this onto myself. Whatever I moan about, it's my fault. Which, you know, is why I find blogging pointless. I might just retire. Perhaps good things will happen if I shut my eyes. Like a good friend once said, "Good things might happen if you let them."