It's alright now....I guess

I think I have figured it out. I'm not going out with Clay....and I'm giving up on him. Why waste my time on something that is obviously not ever going to blossom and surface and take place in my life? So I guess you could say that I am confused, stumped, lost, and have no direction in which I'm supposed to head now. I'm lost, and no one is there to point me in the right direction. You know.....I think I'm supposed to just leave all guys alone for the time being. They just complicate everything...wondering if you look alright for them, wondering if you are in their minds, wondering why they are in yours.....it's all just a game? Jason has called me and said as soon as I get my feelings in order then he had something to tell me. CRAP! Sarah has said that it doesn't take a rocket scientist to know that he likes me. I really hope not. I don't want anyone to like me right now (not that many people do. What.....one guy does?). Maybe it's just that he's got some things he wants me to help him with and he just wants me to get part of my life sorted out before he comes in with his. Hopefully.....Well Robert may have a blood clot I just found out. In his calf. Pretty sad I'd say. I can honestly say that I'm thankful I don't have a blood clot. Anyways.....I guess this will be one short and boring post. Just thought I'd let the whole world know about my attempt at solving some of my "traumatizing" problems. But hey! who knows what will become of my life when I get to high school? Perhaps it will look up and no guy will ever like me again....therefore I won't have any guy crap to put up with and I can "focus on my studies." Oh boy!