A long Journey ending with Discovery

I can't like him. I don't and I can't. He stated, not directly to me, that he loved me just as a friend. You know what? Now I feel so stupid it's unreal. I've wasted so much time tryine to look "acceptable" to him and the entire time I didn't get a step closer. That's where the RUSH of stupidity walks in. So that's it. Feelings have got to disappear, and so that's my next step. I dont' like him, I can't.....that's it. I'm tired of being dumb, so this is it.
Thanks a lot for your time. Sorry I was a burden.