Of course....everyone was better. Me? Same.

Well, I must say that I am more at ease about starting school. I know where all my classes are and all that good stuff. So now, I have seen most everyone. No, nothing has changed. Chloe, Sunny, Kristen and Chelsi are still popular and beautiful. Chloe Thomas is still one that everyone loves. Me and Marcie are still good friends and will remain good friends till the grave. Sarah is here now. She is going to go to school. That's good. And yes, everyone still loves Sarah. :) You know, I'm kind of excited to go back. Though, it's only because I have nothing to do otherwise. I wish I had some really good reason, like it's been forever since I've seen my boyfriend, or that now I get to see all my friends, but that's not it. Why? Simply because you must have something in order to want to go back to it. "Brianne is that a hint of jealousy in your voice?"........Yeah, I guess. Sure, it's a sin to be jealous of something you don't have.....but sometimes there are exceptions. Hmmmm......
You know what I want to do? Look good the first day of school and have him gaze, wishing I was in his arms.
You know what's not gonna happen?...........


Give up on him.
Sometimes things don't work out on your part.
He doesn't like you!
He never will like you.
He's stuck on her, and I just can't compete.
*Sigh*

....If only. I hate "if only" but......if only I were in his heart, and he looked at me with the thought of, "Man. I wish she were mine."

I need a good self-esteem boost. I hear self-esteem is a turn-on for guys. *Smacks my head* Well, DUH. No wonder!