Cantaloupe Sized Boobs

Wow. Nothing worth blogging has even happened lately. But I figure I need to update.....just for common courtesy type stuff. I maybe going to Houston for a couple of weeks soon. I was supposed to leave Sunday, but the people I'm going to stay with had painting to do. So I might go next weekend. Which, you know, kind of sucks because that means I leave the day before the 4th of July and I don't get to spend that wonderful day with wonderful Sarah (sorry Sarah). But my mom said that they usually go to the lake and watch fireworks and stuff so I guess it will work out ok (sorry Sarah). The REALLY good thing about going is to prove numerous things to my family. One: I am needed around the house and I do more than my family seems to think I do. Two: My brother is indeed going to miss the meals that I cook him. Three: I am the best thing that has ever happened to my family. Well......maybe not the last one.....wait a minute! I take that back. YES the last one! They are going to see that it is hella boring without my humorous nature and my never-ending, entertaining blonde moments. Anyways I haven't talked to him since I was over at Sarah's house. And at that time I did stay up quite awhile and talk to the guy. So I guess it was fun......for me anyways. Not so sure if he was bored, tired, or just wishing he wasn't talking to ME at the time. But.....I guess I will never find out considering we probably won't get any closer than we are now.....and he doesn't tell me anything at the moment, why start now? If he starts telling me anything now, that just means we are getting a tad closer right? Becoming closer friends? And that's not what he wants from me right now. He's got one girl on his mind at the moment and one girl alone. I really need to quit worrying about it. Not that I AM worrying about it.....but I do need to quit talking about it like the whole, "EEERRRR Does he like me or am I just an ugly toad", is running my life. Heh......This has been great.
This is for Sarah: OMG! I like, just had like, the best day of my whole life. Like, I saw this guy at the supermarket and he looked at me and we smiled and then I think he like, winked at me and so I liked so super BLUSHED and he kind of like half laughed and so now I think he likes me and so now like we are so like, getting married! OMG! Well, I gotta like, go. So anyways! TTYL guys! Don't forget that I like, seriously LUV U! Like BYE!

See Sarah. I'm glad we aren't the kind of people that post like that.

Guys are Dumb

Yeah I know...girls are too. Girls have too many roaming emotions, too many childish fights, too much DRAMA. But guys are stupid too. They don't know what they want. Or maybe they do, they just can't see when it's not around. But.....I guess girls are the same way. We know what we want, and we aren't going to give up until we get it.....even it's not around. You know....maybe guys and girls aren't so different? Then again.... *sigh* Complications just keep building. My only help left right now just retired to bed. Did he give me a chance to say "Night?" Of course not. Because....then there might have been the chance that I said something else to him. I think I REALLY bugged him tonight. I didn't mean to. I just wanted a bit of information out of the guy. But if it's talking about relationships or our past he's got nothing to do with it. And, to put it blunt, I hate it. I wish SOMEONE would just help me out, give me a push, a pull, heck a freaking PAT ON THE BACK would make me feel just a tad better perhaps. But never. Maybe I just don't speak up enough. I've been told that I'm not the type that's going to speak up. I'd like to think that I'm not that bad. I mean, sure there are certain subjects that I will just be walked all over about.....but maybe because I have nothing intelligent to say on it? Or, maybe I just NEED to sit back and watch the world go by, watch it from afar, watch everyone walk by and have the chance to see what everyone else is doing instead. Maybe that's my problem, I'm so focused on "me" right now I fail to notice anyone else. But hey.....why take the time to notice, when you aren't noticed yourself? *sigh* I really have no clue what I said throughout the whole blog. I probably contradicted myself several times, but I know what I'm trying to say. I just write it so maybe, just maybe, someone else might know too.....*blinks as the world turns yet again*

It's alright now....I guess

I think I have figured it out. I'm not going out with Clay....and I'm giving up on him. Why waste my time on something that is obviously not ever going to blossom and surface and take place in my life? So I guess you could say that I am confused, stumped, lost, and have no direction in which I'm supposed to head now. I'm lost, and no one is there to point me in the right direction. You know.....I think I'm supposed to just leave all guys alone for the time being. They just complicate everything...wondering if you look alright for them, wondering if you are in their minds, wondering why they are in yours.....it's all just a game? Jason has called me and said as soon as I get my feelings in order then he had something to tell me. CRAP! Sarah has said that it doesn't take a rocket scientist to know that he likes me. I really hope not. I don't want anyone to like me right now (not that many people do. What.....one guy does?). Maybe it's just that he's got some things he wants me to help him with and he just wants me to get part of my life sorted out before he comes in with his. Hopefully.....Well Robert may have a blood clot I just found out. In his calf. Pretty sad I'd say. I can honestly say that I'm thankful I don't have a blood clot. Anyways.....I guess this will be one short and boring post. Just thought I'd let the whole world know about my attempt at solving some of my "traumatizing" problems. But hey! who knows what will become of my life when I get to high school? Perhaps it will look up and no guy will ever like me again....therefore I won't have any guy crap to put up with and I can "focus on my studies." Oh boy!

Ice cream, Movies, Face Masks and Couches

Sarah's house was truly a trip to remember. Last night I did not go to sleep until 6:00 this morning. But....the funny thing is...I was the only one. Sarah Camp slept....Sarah Green slept...Matt Martin slept...Brianne watched movies and episodes of The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air. Sarah Green does not get up in time to go with me and Camp.....so I had the PRIVILEGE of spending half the day with Sarah Camp. We shopped, she got her hair done, we ate pizza, we talked. It was great. I don't think I've done that in a long time. THANK YOU SARAH CAMP! I think I need to call Sarah Green.....but I don't know if her and Camp are talking or if they're out or if they maybe are spending some time together. So maybe I won't disturb them. After all, they didn't get to spend their entire week together......actually for many reasons.
I think I am going to call him and just see what he's up to. I mean....I wouldn't think that would do TOO much harm would it? I really don't even know what to do anymore. Maybe I should just leave it alone like Jamie said to. Let what wants to happen.....happen. If it is meant to happen.....I believe that it will. But I'm certainly not going to make a complete fool of myself by trying too hard to try and get him to notice me. He doesn't notice me.....but do I want him to? Do you think I just want him to end up happy? I mean, if that means being with her.....then let it go Brianne. You know what? I think that's what I'm going to do. If he knows about my thoughts on him and he hasn't stepped up....that obviously means he doesn't feel the same way, correct? Well.....I think I just discovered a new piece of the puzzle of my head. If he knows how I feel.....like Sarah says he does.....and he hasn't stepped forward to confess that he has the same feelings...then that means they don't exist. Surprise Surprise.......Go figure.